Sentimental

For a while more. Just for a while more.

Hahaa.

You know, when someone you love tells you she's crying every night and knowing that, you can't do anything about it really hurts.

Somewhere foreign, unknown people. It's not easy, I know.

Anyway, I went to submit my VISA application today. I left the house at 0600 and reached Wisma MCA at 0730. I was aiming to be the FIRST but I didn't make it. I was number 19. Dang! How early are these people???

Today, I felt that SLEEP is the best thing anyone could ever have!!

<3

SLEEP PEOPLE, SLEEP AS MUCH AS YOU CAN!

Ja, oyasumi!

Iro Iro II

I have a lot of things going on my mind but they're not easily penned down nor do I want to write them.

Today I went for dinner with my ex-colleagues from the tuition centre. The less intelligent one was absent of course. What's more, she's getting married next two months. That was pretty quick.

I also learned that my ex boss from that place lost her baby on the day of delivery. She was there, watching as the doctor failed to save her baby. That came as quite a shock and I personally don't think I can take it. I'd probably kill myself.

Last week cousin Veron came over to recuperate. It was really nice to be hanging out, drinking, shopping, chatting, cursing idiots all around in and out of our lives. Hahaa. Speaking of which I can't wait for Raya to come so I can have my chat sessions with them again!

AND MY RENDANG OF COURSE!!

Siong left for US.

I was emotional for many days prior to that and it only got worse. Now I think I'm just quite emotionless, seeing as how I'm tired of being depressed. Yes, I am tired of being depressed. Give me some time while I readjust my matters and find time to inject sunlight into my smiles again.

Man, this Japanese salted light cheesecake tastes awesome!

My college life is coming to an end.

I'm stepping into University life very soon. Although I don't think there's much difference anyway. Hahaa. But with an entirely new environment, I think things must be different. I don't even have anyone I know that's going to Cardiff! I'm flying alone, booking a residence alone, taking subjects alone and up until now, pretty much alone. Not that I mind, really. Aha.

I have got one or two acquaintances contacted me and had a chance to meet the seniors but.. I don't talk to strangers that I don't want to know, you see. Let me have my observation on them further and I'll tell you about it.

August is ending and what happened to my hardcore-swimming-routine?

It hasn't even started yet. But it wasn't my fault. I have all the determination in the world!

When I decided to do it, I was having my period. Then my cousin came to visit, then Audrey has exams so it's inconvenient to bother her and now during the weekends she has returned to Ipoh.

*Indignant look*

I shall leave a portion of my cheesecake for snack tomorrow.

For now, it's toddles and nights!

BREAKING POINT

That's it.

The tap just flowed.

I don't care if it's in public.

I don't care if it's loud.

Now you and I know why I emo recently.

I REALLY VERY EMO.

NO HAL THEN DON'T TOC TO ME.

FAHAM?

BAI.

Tears For You

Can I start crying now?

Because I am already missing her.

But I can't find my tears.

Dream III

Last two nights I wasn't able to sleep well.

Night one was the one with Handsome on my bed.

No, thankfully he didn't pee on my bed. But to ensure that I have to leave the bathroom light on which is out of the norm for me and to wake up EVERY HOUR to ask if he wants to pee.

Then he wakes up really early in the morning and started yelling at me and my sister to wake up because no one is up yet. Haha.

Last night I went drinking with cousins and sister so we overnight at my grandmother's place.

Somehow foreign beds doesn't comfort me too well. Coupled with the fact that I'm helpless over some issues, so I had a hard time falling asleep.

To top it off, I dreamt of my boss =.=

As in my boss back in Chooi & Co. In the dream, I am back doing attachment with them again and is assigned to my boss again.

Also, I dreamt that my bestie Eri who's doing mass communication is also there. Weird.

But one thing I like about the dream is that I was wearing a new pair of black heels =D

This must be a sign! Coincidentally my sister broke my heels on her prom night. Muahahaha!

It's repairable though...

SHIKASHI! I also believe that there's no such thing as coincidence. There is only necessity.

I started to think that this is the theory since I watched CardCaptor Sakura *squeals*

*smirks*

I'm in the mood for shoe shopping again!!

Emo Handsome

I think this is the first time I've seen him so depressed.

His mother went back to Thailand yesterday to settle some stuff. Since she's going to be rather busy and the kids still have school, so all the kids stayed behind.

Hence, my sister and I have to take turns being the driver and sitter.

Today it's my turn.

I had to prepare lunch, pick them from school, then to tuition, then dinner, bathe or whatever it is. Speaking of bathe, while I was drying him up, he quickly scrambled into the toilet again and got his Johnson baby oil. I looked on as he poured a small amount onto his palm and rubbed it on himself.

I asked him: Why you put the baby oil?

Handsome: Because, put already body smell very good!

Hahaha.

What love.

Later I let them watch Rapunzel.

When I was about to go to Jusco to accompany Kao-chan for some shopping, the three brothers and my own tagged along. Haha. So odd.

Now, he's on my bed.

An hour ago he's still jumping here and there.

He's all quiet now. I asked him a moment ago if he misses his Mom and he nodded.

*sniff*

His expression is so hard to bear. My heart breaks seeing him like this.

At that point in time, I just didn't know what to say. I don't know how to comfort him.

It took me another 30 seconds before I can come up with some words to so call calm his worries.

He looks super depressed now.

And all that is added with the fact that he forgotten his bolster (in baby language, it means the smelly sleeping aid that all kids possess and is obsessed about).

Haha.

Goodnight!

PS: Please let him NOT pee on my bed again.

PPS: Bought matching hairbands with Kao-chan and Eri-chan! <3

Kotex & Ramadhan

It's the fasting month.

Unlike my schooling days, nowadays Ramadhan seem to have less impact on me. Those days, fasting month means going home early and having no food in the canteen. Not that I like their food anyway; it just saves me the trouble from preparing them in the morning where I would rather trade the time to sleep. Later I started my solo strike on canteen food as a form of protest against their ridiculously expensive price which doesn't tally with the quality of the food render no-food-during-Ramadhan nothing much of a problem to me.

Now, sometimes I forget that it's the fasting month.

However, as if custom, I still visit the pasar Ramadhan at least once every year during these three years I left school. I guess now the impact of Ramadhan on me takes on a different way; in terms of traffic jams and overcrowded restaurants. For the record, I never like much of malay or mamak food. I'm very much someone who prefers oriental menu. So, I almost never buy anything from the pasar I went. But it's a great way to hang out with my beloveds.

Next, I want to point out this outstanding advertisement on Kotex, the sanitary pads. I know some may feel it's odd to be talking about this publicly but not me.

Anyway, on the bottom right corner of the pack it shouts:

"WOW! Pads with designs"

Then at the side there's this illustration of the pad with designs.

I don't see how a pad with designs will attract buyers, not me at least. It's meant to be thrown away after all. So why are they bothered with printing designs on sanitary pads and further incurring costs on the already not-so-cheap necessity? But I guess it's because the demography is FEMALE. I personally am not attracted to padswithdesigns, heck, I'm not even a fan of Kotex but I only use it because my Mom loves it so. The designs are not that nice anyway.

The only one time I ever fall for cute packaging is the HELLO KITTY box of liners by Intimate. To justify this, I like that brand.

Thus, this ends this random combo of two totally irrelevant topics.

JAANA!

Kyo Kara Maoh!

From today onwards, you're the Demon King!

I've finally FINISHED it. COMPLETELY.

PLEASE CONTINUE WITH SEASON FOUR. PLEASE.PLEASE. PLEASE! I don't want it to end!

Watashi no musuko tachi! <3

Yuuri always surprises me. His kindness, that's why I like him so much! Maoh became manlier! Even Wolfram has matured!

And when he lectured Shinou, LOL!

Shinou is such a child. I really like Murata too!

Aah~ In short I just love everything about it!

I'm going to leave the hefty review and just tell you I love it very very much.

Mouchirou, some as eye-catching as von Bielefeld kyo is a favourite!

Now, what's next? =D

Code Geass Third Season

I wonder if this is good news or bad news.

Read here.

The third season of Code Geass: Hangyaku no Lelouch is confirmed and will be released next year.

I last leave my review of the anime with my hope of him being alive. I still do. I remember how heart breaking the ending was and how I was stunned for an hour after it before being able to do anything at all. But I'm not very sure I want a new season on it. And since it's with new characters, I am not sure if I am looking forward to it.

Tonikaku, I hope this new season would bring a new light and would not destroy the idea and the story. I really love Code Geass. Like really really love it.

It's about time I re-watch it.

I miss everyone. Especially Lelouch, C.C. and Suzaku!

I know I'll cry again when the ending comes.

BUT WHO CARES.

HAHA.

Ja~

Serendah

A two days one night trip to Serendah.

A veeeeeery small signboard in a veeeeeeeeeeery ulu place. And the spelling salah pulak tu.

We stayed in the glass shed.

The kitchen.

As quoted from John: a very natural toilet.

I love the window!

The view of the barbecue place from that window.

SWIMMING!

Doing some walking, trying to catch a cold while walking in soaking wet attires.

DINNER.

I'm lazy to go in the details.

Main points are:

# No phone reception. If you're some great business man which every second of yours costs thousands and millions, then forget this place.

# Bring your own food.

# Plan your own entertainment, like drinking until you puke.

I slept at 0500 because we talked too much. HAHA.

This trip is a good one because I've forgotten how beautiful the forest is.

Now I miss it =)

Jaana!

世界よ笑え

The world's smile .

Sekai yo warae by Yoshida Jungo with M-Tone


They always have inspirational lyrics!

何を目指して何を掴むの？　君でいればいい

夢に向かうこと面倒だなんて　嘘だろう
扉はすぐに開けるよ　信じること

たどり着いたこの世界で　本当の生きる意味知るんだ
遠回りで進む方が　誰より強くなれるはずだよ
消し去れる夜も　過去もないから　君らしく今を大切に
明日に又　向かえばいい

その場しのぎで背伸びをしても　君じゃないだろう？
これが僕だと「どうでもいいだろう」　伏せた目　肩でため息
逃げたきた　今までずっと

流れ着いたこの未来で　本当の強さの意味知るんだ
あきらめないでいる方が誰より　輝いてゆけるんだ

不意に痛む　確かな過ちの影に　震えることは無い　明日を見て笑え

たどり着いたその世界で　本当の生きる意味知ったんだ
あきらめないでいる方が　苦しくても　明日に向かいだせるよ
消し去れる夜も過去も無いから　君らしく今を大切に
明日のため　君のために


Translation:

What will you obtain from what you are aiming for?
Just stay the way you are.

You say it's too much trouble to head towards your dreams,
but that's a lie.
The door to them will open soon enough,
just as long as you believe it will.

In this world that we have found ourselves in
We learn the true meaning of life.
Even by taking the longer way,
You should come out stronger than anyone else.
Neither the night nor the past can be wiped away
So cherish the present time the way you want.
There's always tomorrow.

Even if I overexert myself and have to improvise,
you don't understand why.
When I say this is just who I am, you say that doesn't matter
With lowered eyes, as your shoulders move up and down with a deep sigh.
You were always avoiding it all of this time.

In this future that we have been swept towards,
We learn the true meaning of strength.
The ones who never give up trying,
Continue to shine brighter than anyone else.

There is no need to shiver with despair
At the sudden pain brought on from
The shadows of your past mistakes.
Look towards tomorrow with a joyful laugh.

In that world we have found ourselves in
We have learned the true meaning of life.
The ones who never give up trying,
Can always face tomorrow, no matter how painful it may be.
Neither the night nor the past can be wiped away
So cherish the present time the way you want,
For tomorrow, and for yourself.

<3