It's an eventful day as it affects me.
My brother and sister both took SPM last year and their results are being released today.
I was expecting all kinds of results from both of them because I've been through it, I know how the whole process felt like; from stepping into Form 5 right to the moment your results came into your hands.
I was there.
To be honest, I don't know what to expect out of both of them at all. With the new grading system, anything can happen. I only know one thing, hard work pays off. Looking at how the both of them worked towards the exam sometimes puts me to shame. I guess deep down they were more determined than I am.
I received a missed call from my cousin brother when I was in class today. My heart literally skip a beat. I called him. And he told me something that made me smile for half an hour long. His results were spectacular! Embarrassingly, I felt like bursting into tears out of happiness for him. I was probably happier than he is! Hahaa.
Congratulations, darling!! ^__^
After I settled down, my heart skip two beats. I realised that now all eyes and ears are on my sister.
I waited and waited. She did not call me nor do I wish to bother her. I understand that sense of privacy you need when you yourself are having a stomach full of butterflies and on the verge of puking out of nervousness. I asked if she wants me to be there with her but she refused and I did not push it. In the end, she never called but I was informed by Audi who accompanied her to take her results.
It wasn't what she expected. It was below her expectations. But what she does not know that it was good enough for the rest of us. Truthfully, my heart sank. But it's not because she did not hit a certain target that she wanted, but it's because she cried. It pains me.
I know being a good student myself puts pressure on her. Putting myself in her position, I would probably feel the same. I knew perfectly well what went in her mind though she doesn't tell me because
Siong was placed in the same position as well. Inevitably comparison will be drawn between the both of us which is in essence, useless.
Dear JiaHui,
I want you to know that I'm really, really proud of you.
No matter what they say or how our relationship turn out to be; sisters or not, we're still individuals of our own. We always have different way of doing things and different mindset. I don't expect sky high out of you. I don't want all those nonsense to affect you to who you want to be and who you will become. I told you again and again, don't bother how the others look at us. We know best who we are.
Please don't cry anymore. It's a great achievement! I know how difficult SPM is, I know how much you need to work your way towards it. You've done it! So be happy! All of us are very proud of you! Congratulations ♥
I love you very much =)
