Requiem

A requiem for myself, for the year.

I must say, this has not been a very happy year.

I felt different and most importantly, I AM different.

I changed.

I left what people call, security, and stepped into the world where you are exposed and there's no boundary, no end to it.

I met many people and lost few.

Of course, there are most that I wished I hadn't known them and some that I want them to be lost.

Most importantly, I haven't found they whom I'm looking for and on the verge of loosing those I love dearly.

And I must say, this has pose me a fair-sized burden on my shoulders.

Something that has been making me unhappy the whole year.

I did not laugh until my stomach aches everyday as I used to.

I longed for it. But no.

I have everything that attracts me to school, but I have none to college.

I used to be a very cheerful person, full of energy and charisma.

But where is she who was once me?

I saw her and I called her, but she would not return to me.

Perhaps, I actually denied her return?

I do not hate travelling. In fact, I love it.

But to do it in this country is something I never want to look forward to.

No one will survive without challenges.

This is something college students go through.

And if I can't, can I actually call myself one?

I did not study much this year, as compared to the last.

Maybe because it is not as threatening?

But I know it is.

And yet, I am very laid back, taking things as they go.

Even so, it cannot be said that I did not put in efforts.

Because I did. As much as needed.

I met them whom I thought I lost.

I was happy and am still happy.

We talked, shared and laughed.

I even remembered this one, when he say

"Oh hi, I know you"

To which I reply

"Oh you do??"

That is to my first crush.

I changed my views in so many things.

Open up my mind a little further and am able to see things rationally.

Becoming wiser.

Falling in love with Super Junior.

Amazing.

However, a dark side has shrouded me as well.

I turned depressed and sad.

Angry and moody.

I hate almost everyone and love very few.

To this moment, I am still thinking to myself.

Is this who I really want to be?

Because in reality, I have become this person.

I do not have much to hope for the new year.

For I would want things to come as they go.

But I would love to meet they whom I want to meet, to do what I love to do.

I will re-think about the person who I really want to be.

I will find a new person when I look at the mirror every morning.

And I will love her because I made her.

I made her because I want her to be made.

To the new year.

I want to love more people.

I want to do more things.

And explore even more.

I will show the world my existence and may they acknowledge it.

Happy New Year.

It's Christmas, Merry Christmas

Firstly, a toast to my fat dog, Lucky.

Had dinner with Chocoholics though not everyone can make it.

Food was fine, and they were really generous.

I felt like my stomach was going to burst anytime.

Back home, my sister made a cake and some failed cookies which she dumped most away.

That is REALLY wasted.

*Sigh*

She wanted to dump the failed icing for the cake too, but I told her I will eat it because I couldn't stand more food wastage.

Failed icing. It doesn't taste very nice, trust me.

And that pretty much wrap up Christmas this year.

Merry Christmas.

Walking Into Cosplay World

Never thought I would cosplay one day.

And no links for today; LAZY.

Well, I am not an official cosplayer, YET, but am aspiring to become one.

And not to mention it's an expensive and time-consuming hobby.

Sewing Ciel's eyepatch. And is DONE!

After much deliberation, I decided to cosplay as Ciel Phantomhive from Kuroshitsuji (please google the picture yourself).

But today! I'm in the mood to make up as Joker instead of Ciel.

I should get super red lipstick or something. This is not bright enough.

Second version.

Recent news is that not only Hankyung is suing, but another few members as well.

*Sigh*

They should all sue together.

SM should have foresee this after their best weapon, DBSK left.

Gah!

~Goes and do some cosplaying research~

Mixed Feelings

I am happy but upset.

I'm happy because the Japanese drama that I am watching has a happy ending.

Otomen

No, I'm not happy enough right now to do a review.

But it's really comedic as it is adapted from the manga.

I like the supporting actor more. Keke.

Hajime Tonomine in the drama, Ryo Kimura in real life.

The thing I'm upset about Hankyung, the sole Chinese member in Super Junior, leader of Super Junior-M is filing against his company, SME, just like DBSK.

Gosh, I'm really sad now.

And listening to their songs definitely no help at all.

HanKyung.

Why??

He was one of my very favourites after Kyuhyun.

And Kyuhyun! Poor him.

I'm sure he is just upset, so stop bashing him already.

Gah! I'm sad out of my mind now.

*Cries*

Oh Yeah!

Oh yeah~!

If there's any reason to feel hype, it's this.

Oh Yeah by MBLAQ.

*Screams at Joon's abs*

To Plan

I am currently planning my Christmas very carefully.

Cousins ShiIan and JoLynn went home last night and it'll be another two months before I see them again on Chinese New Year.

Oh I miss them already =(

I wanted to crash Aki-chan's place today and was even thinking what should I bring over to her house to play with.

But was turned down when she said she's going back to her hometown later.

After some ranting to Kao-chan, I decided to go to her church and help her out with the vocational programme.

I watched the kids' play and had fun there and didn't actually helped out much, hehe.

But I enjoyed myself very much.

ShanShan and MayMay (if these are spelled correctly?), friends of Kao-chan asked me if I would come tomorrow as well.

And I said no though I really wanted to.

But I just know that my Mom wouldn't allow me to. Haha.

Around 4pm, Kao-chan and I met up with Izzuddin and his four Japanese friends.

It was so awkward! It's not like I can speak fluent Japanese!

I can understand the basics but when it comes to speaking I just fail; the words won't come out.

And Aki-chan soko ni iru jane!

But we still communicated in English (and they're good) and BM.

Can you believe it?? Their BM is so good! They even introduced themselves in BM!

I felt soooo inferior, they knowing our language and we barely know theirs.

Kao-chan even asked if they understand Korean, as she can speak and which they don't.

Izzuddin sometimes helped as the translator. Keke.

But it was a good meeting. They are really friendly and nice people.

Minna wa honto ni yasashii ^^

Though they forgot my name ten minutes later while I still remember theirs until now.

Haha! Yoroshiku!!

Bought ice-cream and it was excellent!!

It has been really long since I had ice-cream.

Ooooyasumi!

Ninja Assassin

I tried very hard not to nosebleed throughout the whole movie because there was enough blood already.
I went with Aki-chan, Kao-chan, Imadori and LouTau Ray.

Ninja Assassin.

The storyline is direct and basic, not too twisted and all.
The action scenes are of course, awesome, considering the weapons they used and the nature of the characters, that is, ninjas.
No excessive computerising, which is good and natural.

I like the chain-knife weapon! It's so yeng!

I find it really cool when the ninjas are pulling their weapons out and getting ready to attack. Really cool! Kya~!

Siong finds the movie fit to become a 3D one.

In the movie, there's a part where Rain got captured and an officer remarked "He doesn't look like a ninja, he looks more like he's from a boyband" which just cracks us up like there's no tomorrow. It'll be funnier if they say this instead, "I think he looks like Rain from Korea". Haha!!

Wee~ Finally I found something nice about ninja.

Hell, I'm still NOT watching Naruto after this.

I'm not a fan of Rain.

But his body is nice! And he trained excessively for this movie, refining his body!!

His ugly hair in the movie.

This is better!

Along the movie, Kao-chan and I swayed to the actor who plays teenage Rain in the movie, Lee Joon from MBLAQ, a boyband under Rain's training and has just recently debuted. Omo he is just cute! I like his jaw! (I have this fetish for nice jaws lately).

Has nice body too!

Siong finds his smile special and mesmerizing.

THIS MAKES ALL THE A-PLUS (MBLAQ's fanclub) INCLUDING ME SCREAMS!!!!

Ray made a statement, "I like black girls" in Korean slang and it is just so funny!! Should have recorded it. We, namely Ray, Kao-chan and I suspected that Rain likes black girls. Haha!! Backed up by the evidence that even the boyband that he created is called MBLAQ (black).

Oh oh, I'm an A-Plus!

But I'm still very loyal to my Super Junior <3

I enjoyed the movie!! Keke.

Later, they decided to crash my house except for Aki-chan.

Oh, I got Aki-chan's storybook that she wrote! And a J-drama which I want to start immediately. I feel like skipping Beyond The Realm of Conscience and Born Rich; so draggy!

I'm skipping class tomorrow.

Because I wouldn't know what is going on and no one to accompany me.

I'm staying home and watch drama. Wee~~~~!

Song of the month: Oh Yeah by MBLAQ!!

Criminal Law; Solitude

Attended this class today.

Marcus, Nick and Ralim were there too.

Class was fine, having TWO breaks in three hours.

I reached before 12pm, only to find class starts at 1pm due to some technical problems.

Went for lunch at OldTown with Marcus' company and ordered the wrong drink.

Later, my stomach was not feeling well and I was feeling nervous the whole day UNTIL NOW.

*DEEPLY SUSPECTS CAFFEINE IN THAT MILK TEA THING*

I felt like I went into the wrong class.

Other than the three I mentioned, I don't know anyone else.

Luckily the lecturer, Mr. Arnold (almost a middle-age man? A practicing lawyer and overall a fun man) started a new topic and it's content is familiar.

But still. Marcus went blank after the first half an hour. I'm dead halfway. Nick was fast asleep by the end of the class.

Plus, with my adrenaline running up and down in me, it was hard to concentrate.

It ends at 4pm, got to Bandar Tasik Selatan and cursed the bus like there's no tomorrow because as I and another woman were chasing it doesn't give a damn and kept going off!!

ASSHOLE!

Waited for some time while trying to ignore some couple fight that is going on really heatedly.

I don't care, seriously. They're so noisy!

Couldn't stand to wait any longer and have to rush back to see if my brother is okay and make dinner, so I hopped on a cab and got down at the security guard house (no, I don't like people to know where I stay) and paid a bloody RM8.80.

*Sakit hati*

Siong told me later they charge by time nowadays. Nice.

I was watching drama with my sister just now and there came a part in the drama where they celebrate someone's birthday.

Only to realise I did NOT blow candles this year.

Other than Yannie's and Eri's cake, I have no cake and no candles.

*feelslikecrying*

I celebrated alone at home.

Oh!!

I hope NinjaAssassin works tomorrow!!!

I really wanted to watch.

Sal! Please secure the car tomorrow!! Onegai!

I have nothing to do.

*Sigh*

Goddess II

Shan Jie Jie <3

She just came back from her prom.

And I couldn't stop admiring.

Please click pictures to enlarge.

The beauty herself!!

Cinderella after twelve o'clock!!

LOLs!

She's really pretty tonight!!

Being Lazy

A morning picture!

Rise and shine, babeh!

Went out to buy lunch.

Again, another picture for FatherRaymond.

Take this!

I lazed around too much today.

Have nothing better to do.

AND I FINALLY SEE SHAN JIE JIE ONLINE after so many days.

I have Christmas planning to discuss with her.

Since I'm a freethinker, it gives me flexibility to celebrate whatever I want.

Oh oh! I just added Nazrul on Facebook!

But don't get me wrong.

Have no special thoughts.

Only admiration-still!

Keke.

Nights!!!

Omona!!

What happened to their hair?????

I asked for a haircut for Kyuhyun (on the right in the circle), but this just makes me faint.

*Faints*

And HeeChul-hyung's hair!!!

He needs THE HAIRCUT, big time!!!

Please click the picture to enlarge. Picture nabbed from SapphirePearls.

New Nails II; Degree

Jang~~!

Again, thanks to sister for having the patience.

AND, the design is my idea.

Today's meals are excellent!

Mom tried cooking this pork dish that I don't know what it is called.

She say it fails, but I thought it was excellent!

Nothing beats Mom's cooking.

I went to college today to register for my degree.

Yes, fast isn't it?

How one year has passed?

These are the books.

I'm one more step closer to my dream ten years ago.

This feels good because everything is going on smoothly; going to college, taking the course that I want and has no problem with it thus far.

I've seen peers my age, older or younger. Observed, to be precise.

Of course, I still dream of being more independent at my age now as much as I can, like how cousin Veron and Kimchi-senpai is. They're very admirable.

Because only then, success feels more solid, more real.

I also talked to my sister about what she wants to do in the future.

She gave me a bunch of dreams that are related to HOTEL.

*Shakeshead*

Anyway, we had a good laugh and a fun time deliberating what she should do.

And perhaps in the nearest future might to the Education Fair with her.

But I personally thinks she needs to have bigger dreams.

Muahaha!

In the evening out of super boredom, went out with Imadori, Kao-chan and Lala-chan for tea session. My sister tagged along because she finds us entertaining. Haha.

Of course, like usual we couldn't stop talking.

We took some pictures only because most of the time we're laughing like crazy where other people at the other tables turned and looked at us.

Afyzim a.k.a. tai kau sui came and kononnya bumped into us.

Went home and had my Mom's excellent cooking for dinner.

Until later ShiIan and JoLynn decides they will call Aunt Tong in Dubai to call my Mom to call my grandmother to let them come over to my house.

I went and became their best driver.

And we played Monopoly.

And of course, Sakyou-dono won with over RM32,840 worth of property and cash.

*Throwsflower*

Speech as per requested by Marcus:

"Thank you very much. I am very much honoured to have competitors such as my young cousins and my sister. And by having them intruding into my property, made me the winner. Of course, I must congratulate myself for having very good planning from the beginning to suck all their money in which I succeed in doing so and have poor little JoLynn to sell her houses to pay the debt. Most of all, I must thank you supporters of mine. Arigatou gozaimasu!"

A photo to end the day.

Oh! And Aki-chan is back from Sabah!!

To read her adventures (a little contributed by ME) please click HERE.

Muahaha!

Oooyasumi!!

Seoul Song

Again, I'm no Korean fan.

But songs like this makes you want to fly to Korea and kiss the boys.

Loves Kyu's smile <3

Rain Again

Literally. Not Ji Hyun Joong (lazy to link; NO LINKS TODAY).

It's raining again.

Even though it started late in the evening, it still pulls your mood down.

My heart nearly stopped when I found out about SOMEthing a while ago.

Aish.

It just further hits me on the head, further injuring my mind than it already is.

Don't worry, I'm not going to kill myself.

Because that's what brainless people do.

Who am I?

Muahaha!!

I made Aki-chan report to me everyday while she's in Sabah.

I kept reminding her to admire Mount Kinabalu.

Ahh~ Until now I still feel very proud of myself. Keke.

And I suggest people who wants to go to Sabah to watch Born Rich.

Because they really show interesting places of Sabah that are the must-visits.

Marcus has just investigated me.

Haha! Press HERE.

This is fun! And quite true to some point.

Your say?? Welcome to comment.

You people can go and play too.

But I suggest that there's a limit into believing this kind of stuff.

For fun, go ahead ^_^

AND! Kyuhyun and I got 98.8% !!!!

Muahaha!

I don't need to sleep tonight!

Omo!! I'm really happy! This totally makes my day!!!

Come on larh!

Can let me dream a bit or not??

I'll try to hit the comic shop near my place tomorrow.

If no vacancy, I'm giving up and will laze around until next week when Kao-chan finally has holidays.

On the way, I hope to find Loveless =)

Okays!

I'm going to go try out a few more dates, like Kao-chan and LeeTeuk.

Haha!!

Nights!

Jebal!

Someone!

Please!

Give him a haircut??????

Picture nabbed from SapphirePearls.

It's Getting Nearer

As mentioned, KLCC.

Brought the kids to Aquaria. I'm doing everything the SECOND time with kids.

Shan Jie Jie, this section wasn't ready when we went there. But I have pictures to compensate for you <3

Awkward smile.

Look at those hair-like tentacles. Spectacular. The lights are often switching colours, making these jellies look more enchanting.

Watch this to see how they move.

Took pictures at center of the mall. We got a free photoshoot as Mom bought some I-don't-know -what-Armani perfume from the promotions they're having. These are the extras I took. Keke.

Mom and JoLynn.

Screw PC Fair!

Too many people at the mall.

I hate going to places with a lot of people.

Christmas is getting nearer!

And I have no plans yet.

Since I can't follow Audi and Raphael to Singapore, I have to think of something else.

I want a peaceful yet fun Christmas.

Now how is that going to happen? Haha.

LouTau Ray say he's going to blog.

So I shall go and see now.

Ja!